Thank you for sharing this Misty. It came out of you in a way that i perceive life has come into you, deep, slow and beautiful. My heart hurt reading this. I know the difference too, except in my case, my daddy is my heavenly father. I found the meaning of fatherhood in God and it was a painful journey getting there. I write about it here in a piece titled, "I called God daddy". I am glad you are writing from a place of peace and maturity. You are precious.